UrbanMasque
Everyone Wears a Mask
danielrbischoff said:
Warren.. Luke?
Who are these people?
Depression
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Warren.. Luke?
Who are these people?
Delorean88
Rookie
The start of this new college semester was pretty bad, ever since last summer I haven't had the greatest luck medical wise. Last summer I had a week where doctors told me that I might have Lymphoma or Leukemia and after several blood test and a biopsy I was thankfully told it was negative and it turned out to be EBV. Well this year last month been going to the doctor to figure out why I have weakness, constant fatigue and nausea. Long story short I was told I had autoimmune disease known as Lupus which was in fact the cause of my EBV and several other symptoms that have plagued me since middle school. This was discovered after 2 weeks of various different specialists and having them all say "there's something wrong with you, we just don't know what."
It's not comforting getting a disease that is way more common in females than males (no offense to any women). I guess I have a mentality that if I get a disease I want a manly one. I'm not too worried about Lupus, I have two aunts that have it and they've been able to live their lives like normal. It's just weird that from now on my life will be a different because of the Lupus (but I don't know by how much, I'm still researching on Lupus is). The night I found out I went to a friends B-Day and had too much of rum and coke/vodka ending the night with passive aggressive angry towards anyone around followed by a shockwave of depression and ending my night passed out on my toilet.
I feel better about it now and I've been able to be happy about things again and live normally but it was kind of hard to start the semester happy when doctors are telling me I might have something and put me thru multiple blood works, an x-ray and check-ups. I was scheduled for a colonoscopy but thankfully that turned out to be an operation I wouldn't need.... For now. I guess that's why I haven't been posting or doing even being social in real life. I was super depressed but only because I feel that once I open the door to all the pent up and repressed sadness I've built up over the years it'll just turn into a rollercoaster that only heads straight down into a pile of sadness and depression. Thank God for video games, comedy, food, pleasant shitting, sexual release and the radio show I host to cheer me up
.................................. I haven't read the previous posts and i have a feeling we're no longer talking about depression.....
It's not comforting getting a disease that is way more common in females than males (no offense to any women). I guess I have a mentality that if I get a disease I want a manly one. I'm not too worried about Lupus, I have two aunts that have it and they've been able to live their lives like normal. It's just weird that from now on my life will be a different because of the Lupus (but I don't know by how much, I'm still researching on Lupus is). The night I found out I went to a friends B-Day and had too much of rum and coke/vodka ending the night with passive aggressive angry towards anyone around followed by a shockwave of depression and ending my night passed out on my toilet.
I feel better about it now and I've been able to be happy about things again and live normally but it was kind of hard to start the semester happy when doctors are telling me I might have something and put me thru multiple blood works, an x-ray and check-ups. I was scheduled for a colonoscopy but thankfully that turned out to be an operation I wouldn't need.... For now. I guess that's why I haven't been posting or doing even being social in real life. I was super depressed but only because I feel that once I open the door to all the pent up and repressed sadness I've built up over the years it'll just turn into a rollercoaster that only heads straight down into a pile of sadness and depression. Thank God for video games, comedy, food, pleasant shitting, sexual release and the radio show I host to cheer me up
.................................. I haven't read the previous posts and i have a feeling we're no longer talking about depression.....
UrbanMasque
Everyone Wears a Mask
People underestimate the power of a good bowel movement in relaxing the soul..
We're still talking about it.. I think.. but its turned into more of a support group thread. Its interesting to hear about these things, and I thank you guys for sharing. Just like Bret said - if you guys are feeling really down, I think everyone here will be happy to talk about ish with you.
We're still talking about it.. I think.. but its turned into more of a support group thread. Its interesting to hear about these things, and I thank you guys for sharing. Just like Bret said - if you guys are feeling really down, I think everyone here will be happy to talk about ish with you.
WickedLiquid
Regular
Optimus-Crime said:
danielrbischoff
Rookie
But... but...Delorean88 said:
In all seriousness, I hate the doctor's. I can definitely see how being in and out of hospitals and tests and all that shit can get you depressed. And like Urban said, you're posting in a support thread. Anything goes.
NickKmet
Regular
Well, I'm in my senior year of my undergraduate degree, juggling a bunch of ambitious projects, and trying to apply to 11 grad schools all at the same time. I swear to god, if I ever go bald or grey from stress, it should happen in the next 4 months.
At the same time, my breakup with my now ex-girlfriend of 2 years is still hanging over my head (and it really shouldn't be), I've recently discovered that I have feelings for my best friend (a girl), who is unlikely to return them, and I really just don't know what the fuck to do with that situation at all.
I also somehow managed to sneak my way into the top jazz band here, without realizing just how big of a commitment I was signing myself up for. We've got concerts out the ass, and I may actually have to practice my instrument on a regular basis. Who knows when the fuck I'm actually going to have time for that.
Really, I'm just stressed the fuck out, having trouble staying on task, and not really having much actual free time. I've genuinely started to worry that I may seriously fuck up in school this semester just trying to keep track of everything. It's really starting to get to me in a negative way, and shit, we're only two weeks into the school year. Not a good sign for my sanity. Or my video game habit.
At the same time, my breakup with my now ex-girlfriend of 2 years is still hanging over my head (and it really shouldn't be), I've recently discovered that I have feelings for my best friend (a girl), who is unlikely to return them, and I really just don't know what the fuck to do with that situation at all.
I also somehow managed to sneak my way into the top jazz band here, without realizing just how big of a commitment I was signing myself up for. We've got concerts out the ass, and I may actually have to practice my instrument on a regular basis. Who knows when the fuck I'm actually going to have time for that.
Really, I'm just stressed the fuck out, having trouble staying on task, and not really having much actual free time. I've genuinely started to worry that I may seriously fuck up in school this semester just trying to keep track of everything. It's really starting to get to me in a negative way, and shit, we're only two weeks into the school year. Not a good sign for my sanity. Or my video game habit.
danielrbischoff
Rookie
Counseling services on campus are excellent. Even if you don't want to talk about personal issues, they can help you get your shit together.
