So I had a panic attack of sorts today....

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  1. LinksOcarina

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    Today was rough man. I mean, working with kids with autism is always rough, but for some reason today was doubly bad.

    There was a major altercation today with the kid i'm in charge of. He basically had two major meltdowns, one where he got scared of another student having a meltdown, and it took me a whole thirty minutes to bring him back. He didn't have trouble or caused any at this point, but he was visibly upset and I had to remedy that, using some calming techniques we have used in the past, eye contact on me only, and not the problem so his focus is averted, counting numbers and deep breathing to calm himself down, letting him react by asking questions and talking to him to re-direct his focus as well. It worked, but took a long time to do so. It was like talking to someone who is paralyzed with fear and keeping them sane, basically.

    Later on though, he had a meltdown of his own at dismissal. He basically was triggered by an item in the class that was not his and wanted to take it for himself. It was a thirty minute ordeal then to calm him down and get him back to class. Similar techniques were used with more force. The kid, someone whom I have worked with since I started the job, even put his hands on me. I did my best to not yell at him as this would escalate everything, but I did have to firmly remove his grasp around me, since I was essentially blocking his view from the book. We eventually needed security to help us calm him down, which did work, and escorted him to his bus at that point to go home.

    It was after this, and I was driving, when I felt dizzy and disoriented. When I got to my school for class tonight, I pretty much zoned out and almost fainted, on campus. I also felt pain in my chest, so I doubt it was a heart attack. So I got up, drank something quick, and headed home, missing class and all of that.

    It is making me reflect on my current job. I am working as a paraprofessional, one of five in a classroom, with a one to one basis on the five kids in there. It's basically collaboration for a full year at this point, with three years of subbing on my belt. And it has worn me down to the point where I don't know if I can physically continue.

    I know this may be a bit over some peoples head, but what do you think about this? I want to teach, and while my job right now has been rewarding and a challenge, I honestly feel it is wearing me down physically. Any thoughts or comments are greatly appreciated.
     
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  2. De-Ting

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    Peanuts. Lots of energy, protein, and they make you smarter...you're not allergic, are you?
     
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  3. Diabolus

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    I think the answer is clear. You've contracted Autism from that kid, who was contagious.
     
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  4. LinksOcarina

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    I am already eccentric as it is, I doubt thats the problem diabolus :p.
     
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  5. DocMoc

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    It would seem that you are experiencing burn out, Links. At an education faculty, you hear all kinds of horror stories about the first few years in a classroom; I'm sure you have heard them all too. Even though you are not teaching full time, you may still be wearing yourself thin.

    You sure seem set on teaching, so I would say that you are in the right job but maybe you haven't found your niche yet. Perhaps being a para is not the right fit for you. Either way, you need to find ways to de-stress your life.
     
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  6. Bretimus_v2

    Bretimus_v2 So tired.

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    ^What he said. I have several friends who have been doing what you do full-time and for several years. In almost each of their lives, it came down to finding people that they could vent and talk out situations with. Not necessarily with the goal of finding a solution, more just to have a sounding board. A lot of them have found different things to help them "decompress" after work. In most of their cases, they've turned to a focused time set apart for low or high impact excercise (taking a walk or riding a bike). One friend knits. Another star gazes with a beer.

    Ultimately, it sounds like you need to take "me time" and connect with some people.
     
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  7. madster111

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    A nice, distracting hobby would be perfect for you.

    If you can, try to get into a hobby where you can make money on the side. Like fixing up things and selling them for profit.
    You can either use that money as extra income, or drop back the days you work for a while to try to get your focus.

    As bret said, exercise can also help. Get a couple weights and walk for a few minutes every day. I find it helped me a lot to listen to an ipod at the same time as heavy lifting, and afterwards i would feel much better.

    Don't get medication, it does not help. Oh, you will feel less stressed, but then you either get side effects or end up thinking you can come off them when you've developed a dependency.

    I also respect you more now, hearing that you help teach the kids that most teachers would hate to. You seem like a cool guy, hence why this post is filled with real advice that helped me when i was stressed out all the time.

    I know it may sound selfish, but Bret hit the nail when he said you need 'me time'.
     
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  8. MattAY

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    Go talk to a doctor? Maybe even just one on the phone. He might A) explain what happened, and B) recommend your next course of action. I dont think any of us can answer anything for you, since it is majorly up to you. It's your job VS your health.

    However, I personally think if you're finding it too stressful then bolt. If it's not your dream job I dont think it's worth risking your health over it.
     
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  9. lokness

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    Sounds to me like you need some time off and holiday.
     
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  10. Lien

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    I agree with Lokness on this and pretty much every one so far. You've just had a bad experience and it makes you reflect on your life. It happens a lot to me (firefighter, more fear then pain i mind you) but this is common with my brother who works for the red cross in the war in the south of Thailand (still a hot issue right now, i mind you).

    My brother is there to translate from Thai to the medics and the human rights committee. He regular takes some months off and he would tell us some things that would make your heart stop. People who survived torture, rape, extortion, illegal imprisonment solely based on their ethnicity and belief and he even saw a dead body. And yet, he's been doing this for the past couples years. When we asked him why he still does this job, he told me he loves to make a difference but he admit some times, he wish he could just runaway without notice. To keep him sane, he just needed a reality check on the world: he takes long days off, meditate and realized he just can't run away from the very thing he loves no matter how horrible sometimes it could be.

    I suggest you do the same. If you feel uncomfortable, just stop, listen to yourself and ask your self "do you really want to do this?". Remember to take as much days off as you need when doing so and we won't hold judgment on you whatever you choose.

    And hey, to cheer you up:
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e6i2WRreARo
    Be happy there's no bees at your workplace!
     
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  11. Bretimus_v2

    Bretimus_v2 So tired.

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    Link's Health vs. the Job
    Defeat the seven evil stressors in order to collect the paycheck and positively influence the students.
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  12. WickedLiquid

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    QFT

    I know you're looking for some opinions here but a doctor will give the best one. Take care of yourself dude!
     
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  13. LinksOcarina

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    First I want to thank everyone for the sound advice, and I do appreciate it immensely. I even did start eating peanuts today for lunch.


    I think what has struck me is that this is the first time I have ever felt like this about my job. I have subbed for three years for the board of ed, and have been working full time for about a year now too. I have been slapped and hit and even stabbed with a scissor before, and it never phased me until now.


    Reflecting on it still too, I am honestly unsure as to what I will do with it. Today when I went in I was fine, and even with the problems that did occur. So I honestly don't know at this point what the deal is, but I think I can figure it out.
     
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